ok well heres a couple of questions.

what would you do when your bf or gf lies to you constantly, cheats on you, hides things from you and does things behind your back, things that you specifically told them not to do. they keep messing up and every time you give them another chance, they blow it and take you for granted. imagine that happening for four damn years, would you still trust that person?!?
and when you dont trust them, you would at least try to question things cuz they claim that they want u to trust them again cuz they love you and are not doing anything wrong, you would still question things and would still want to know things even if its bad news, I would want to know if my bf or gf is a jerk.
and if your bf/gf makes up a character and names it a weird name which sounds more like an ex that you knew about, would that be fine with you?! i dont think so that would just mean hes/shes still thinkin about their ex, so anyway you ask them about it and they tell you that its a person that their brother is dating and ur like "what kinda idiot would waste their time drawing a person that their brother is dating?!" so you are confused and want to know the truth and you already knew that their brother have a gf that really loves him and they have kids together so why the hell would that person leave his girl with his kids and go date some bitch named Beatrice?! oh yeah thats the ugliest weirdest name i've ever heard. anyway since you dont trust ur bf/gf anymore you want to know the truth cuz u think they are lying and its someone they like. so you go and ask the brother's gf about it who is that person if u know her and she didnt know and insisted on knowing why and everything. so i told her exactly what i heard that "ur bf has a girl named that". and you can figure out whatever urself ppl. and then a big problem goes on and it turns out that the brother and the gf were broken up for a while but they were getting back together cuz they love each other, but it seems like the girl loves him and he doesnt cuz if he did, he would wait for her and try to fix things to get back with her, not go and date another bitch. so yeah now when ur bf blames you for the entire thing and defends that jerk that didnt even wait for the one he claims to love and be his true love and future wife, when they defend a jerk like that, what does that mean?! huh? it means they are both the same and that your bf is doing the exact same dumb stupid selfish crappy thing. which only proves that they both never loved neither of you and they were just using you for all this time. then what?! what would you do!? I honestly dont think I did anything wrong. first I really thought he was the one lying about whatever and i had to know whats goin on and second, that girl deserves to know what her stupid jackass bf is doing behind her back and lying about it. he does not deserve her or nothing. he is a scumbag and deserves to have a very lonely and miserable life cuz hes a player obviously and so is his brother who is defending him.
if your bf/gf is just too stupid to even understand things and fight for you when you EVEN SAY IT DIRECTLY I FUCKIN WANT YOU TO FIGHT FOR ME! they still dont get it. what would you do?! and they claim to love you so much. but they apparently dont. what then?! what would you do?!
when they piss you off and hurt you on purpose and they even admit that crap that they wanted to hurt you on purpose, would you still forgive them?! or would you call them names?!
when you have been trying to make things work for years and its just not fuckin working and they are being nothing but jerks. what would you do?! you have done everything you can, you love this person and have tried to forgive them several times and gave them ALOT of chances and EVERY TIME they mess it up!
when the person you love the most in the entire world hurts you lies to you... and hurts you in every way possible... would you still love them and stay by their side trying to help them with their problems... would you still try and wish to get back with them... would you want to trust them even though its hard to after all of the things that happened...?
when the person you love the most.. lies to you every goddamn day... would you ever consider trusting them... when they flirt around with everyone... when they dont like anything about you and keep scolding you for crappy things that they dont even know. they dont even know what they want.. they just want to torture you... what would you do?! would you still be there for them!?
when you tell ur mate this is ur last chance.. dont mess up cuz i really wanna trust you and they mess up a couple of days later... they mess up alot... what would you do?! wouldnt that make you feel like they dont even want to work things out?! its like they're messing things up on purpose cuz they dont want to fix things or be together...
when they blame you for every damn thing that goes wrong when its clearly their own fault... would that make you wanna be with them?!

I am very depressed giving up and very very sick and have gone to the hospital three times today only and im hating life and everything thats in it. so please dont try to cheer me up or anything, just tell me what u think of these questions i asked